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What is in a name? That which we call Invidkllr?

I believe that I am having an online identity crisis. Invidkllr has been my ‘online presence’ name since about 1997. If there is a social network, messenger, tool, forum, or membership that needed a username, Invidkllr was it for me. I’m pretty tied to it; this blog, AIM, xbox live gamertag, my main email address, DJ persona, hip hop rap persona, so many other things that I can’t even think of right now. The reason I am questioning this name is that people have a hard time reading and saying it out loud and always have and not many catch the vague reference, which really doesn’t have much to with me other than the fact that I like Robotech. I’m not even completely obsessed with Robotech though I do keep the DVD box set in my office that was signed by voice actors of Rick Hunter and Foy Fokker, but that’s besides the point. I’m sure there are much easier to say and read names that I could go by that says something more about me. When I chose it originally, anonymity was the idea. Now I’m much older and the internet to me is less about being anonymous and more about being yourself. I have a few other real world nicknames that people call me, but each is only available in some aspects of the internet that I need and not a unique enough name for myself to be represented on all the sites and services I need to function as an online entity. “The online presence formerly known as Invidkllr” is just too long. Deciding on a name is even more dificult that deciding on a band name. You must think of something original and it must not already be taken, but still be rememorable. I want this next name to say exactly who I am and be appropriate enough to continue with until end of life, meaning myself or the internet. Perhaps I will still keep Invidkllr for my rap name, but do I really want to keep invidkllr for somethings and not others? This is when I start double thinking the whole idea and say, “Ah it’s a good name, people know me as that, it has history, I’ll just keep it.”

What to do, what to do….

A few names I’m thinking about but still won’t work for everything….
SirChadwick ( is taken as well as Gmail address)
Chadcore (available on everything except Gmail, but sounds like a porn name)
ChadwickWayne (Gmail name taken)

Gmail tends to screw up all the names. It seems now that the only good Gmail names have to have numbers in them to be unique enough. Chadwick74 is even taken.

Ok, I’ve ranted enough and have come to no solution. Email me name ideas that you may have for me. You know the address.

Marathon Madness

Yes, I have been neglecting this blog, but not too much has happened in the fields that I usually write about.  Rock Band 2 was released and I purchased that on the release date.  It has been very fun.  The actual “game” portion of the game is a lot more fun with friends as a full band.  In RB1 I played through the game just to open songs, but in RB2 we’re playing as a band and in specific events that we make “band” decisions on.  Good times!  And the drum silencers on the RB1 drums have been GREAT!

I haven’t had too much time for much else due to my rigorous marathon run training schedule.  I’m signed up with Rogue Running and I’m up to 12 mile long runs as of last Saturday and running about 12-13  miles during the week.  I have decided to run in 6 races all together of the next 5 months which is a part of a series called the Austin Distance Challenge.  For more information on this part of my life and how my training is going you can hit up my other blog, which is where I’ve been, at, I really need to get a better header image for it.)

Scoot Scoot Scoot

These gas prices are getting insane.  $60 to fill up for my car is just out of control.  I feel sorry for people in California and I always have, but I feel sorry for me here in Austin, TX.  I don’t think anything is going to happen to get the gas prices lower.  I just don’t see it happening.  I will have my car paid off in December of this year, about 6 months away.  I’ve been contemplating buying a nice new motorcycle but I’m not sure my Keinbock Diseased wrist can take the strain a sport bike would give me, and I know I can blow through a 5 gallon tank of gas on a sport bike in one night, I’ve gone it many times years ago.  I need something inexpensive for my daily work commute, which is in town and basically from North Lamar and Braker to downtown.  It’s an easy straight shot.  Is a scooter the best solution for me, other than the bus?  I’ve never owned one, but some of them look pretty cool.  Keneda and his bike from the anime Akira comes to mind with some of the latest scooter designs that are hitting the streets.  I’ve been doing a little research and I might actually hit  some scooter shops to take a look at what they feel like and see what happens.  It’s Austin and scooters are being seen more and more and more everyday.  Is it finally here that people are realizing they don’t need their big cars anymore or that they just can’t afford to drive them everyday?  I picture in my head traffic jams of scooters in Austin like they have in the busy cities of china.  I’m sure if I end up getting one I’ll be posting all about it.

My Dog Ate My Rock Band

A few weeks ago my dog, Crom, decided it would be fun to chew on the Rock Band microphone cable. This did not completely break it. Rock Band would intermittently recognize the microphone but when you sang, no sound would come out. It was broken. A few days later, Crom had so much fun chewing the mic cable that he decided to chew on the drum set kick pedal cord . Well that was just bit right in half. No kick pedal anymore. Rock Band was turned into Guitar Hero by a bored dog. The dog is no longer left alone with the XBox 360 anywhere around.

I shopped around for USB mics that would work with Rock Band and opted to just spend the $30 for a new one. I figured my Best Buy extended warranty wouldn’t cover dog chewage and I was a little lazy about checking it out. I attempted to rewire the kick pedal but found it useless to really even try. It wouldn’t be the same. In the process of disassembling the kick pedal I was able to disconnect the broken wire from the pedal. I just needed to find this little wire part and replace it.

One day I finally decided to call Rock Band support to order this little wire part or to see if it was even possible. In trying to find a support number for Rock Band, I learned that EA handles Rock Band support. I’ve had issues before with EA’s online website and support in working with the online portions of the game Skate. I was unable to login or create a new login to EA’s support site, which is needed to even get any contact info, like an email address or a phone number for EA. I searched some forums and found that other users had the same issue and another poster posted EA’s support number.

Finally, I called EA’s support and they questioned me why I didn’t try to contact them online…. :| After I told him my issue, the support rep informed me that I need to call another phone number for Rock Band hardware support. :| I called Rock Band hardware support and was able to work through the teleprompts to get to a rep that could help me. Jesse was very helpful. I told him that all I needed was the wire for the kick pedal because mine was “accidentally cut”. He informed me that I cannot buy or get just the wire, it would have to be the entire kick pedal. :| But he also surprised me when he said he could replace it under warranty. In my shock, I simple said, “Ok! Cool.” In setting up the RMA I decided to try for a microphone replacement as well. Told him the same thing, “The wire is slightly severed and doesn’t transmit the sound data.” He then jokingly asked, “What, did your dog get a hold of it?” I just replied, “Yes, yes he did.” In my mind I was cursing that little hellion. I blame it on the new adult food I accidently got for him that made him crazy. But Jesse said he would replace that under warranty as well. HELL YES! Rock Band was saved.

I recieved the kick pedal and microphone and sent back the kick pedal. The did not want the microphone back. Rock Band is back in our lives. Crom has been told that he cannot play Rock Band anymore ever.

This blog is to say that Rock Band’s support was bad ass and top class support. I’m guessing that it was another company that was hired by EA to handle the Rock Band support, but whoever that company is, they indeed ROCK. Thanks to Jesse for his understanding and quick help without any needless troubleshooting beyond what I told him I had already done and knew.

And EA, so many people I have talked to have expressed their hatred and dissatisfaction with your direct support and online support. Please do something with the online login system you have. Get rid of it and try another or you know what? Provide some company contact info without a login at least.

That is all, Rock Band party soon!

 added:  EA Support:  1-866-543-5435
                 Rock Band Support:  1-650-628-1001

Invidkllr is Still Running

Marathon training so going ok… Yeah just ok.  I’ve had a pulled muscle and a week of weird stomach cramps.  I started a marathon blog at to track my progress and thoughts on the whole experience.  Drop by and throw some love there.

I found it kind of comical that a few weeks after I started training, I see trailers for the movie Run Fat Boy Run.  This title was similar to the title of what I was thinking for my blog.  Fat Ass or Fat Guy Runs…  I still haven’t seen that movie.  I think I should just as part of my training.

I haven’t weighed myself in a while but Easter weekend I think I had dropped about 8 or 9 lbs.  I’m curious as to where I’m at now, but I don’t have a scale and I’m just now getting back to eating less bad foods.  I love my buffets.  Fat Carl knows what I’m talking about.   If you haven’t checked out, go there now and throw him some love.

Run Run Run.  That’s what I’m doing.  About 10 months to go will the marathon and to me that still seems too soon.  Throw me some love or some advice.

Keep Rollin Rollin Rollin

CROM at ZilkerThat’s a ridiculous title for a blog.

Marathon update: Things are moving along swimmingly….or runningly. I haven’t missed a run yet. I’m on 2 miles 3 times a week and I was only a bit sore after the first two runs. I want to do more, but coach says “GOOOOO EEEEZZZZZ”. So that’s what I do.

CROM update: He’s 12 lbs now and he has lost is puppy legs and is starting to look like a real grown up dog though he’s only about 5 months old now. I’ve been taking CROM to the Auditorium Shores dog park at Town Lake and he’s been making new friends out there. Puppy classes are going really well and he has learned to sit, lay, stay, watch, and he’s having less and less accidents in the house. He had his first road trip to Hillsboro, TX with Coby and I and did very well.

SXSW is getting nearer and there have been a few tech happy hours I’ve been attending to meet new people in the business and to stay connected with the Austin tech community.

With the three day weekend approaching my weekend is filled with Master Pancake Theater at the Alamo Drafthouse and The John Hughes Overdrive.

edit:  oh and happy VD.  There was a time when I spent a good part of this day writing a poem or a song… all for nothing.  wah wah.  “Bitches man.” – Say Anything 

Marathon Madness

Yesterday I decided I would attempt to train and run a marathon one year from now.  The Austin Marathon for 2008 is coming up in two weeks.  I plan to run in the Austin Marathon 2009.  I think a year and a goal can help me accomplish this.  I’ve never been a great long distance runner and I get very bored when running.  About two years ago I was running about 5 miles around Town Lake every other day.  I haven’t done that since but I have been playing soccer consistently for the past year and a year ago I was throwing in some running here and there.  The MS150, 182 mile bike ride is something that I’ve done about 3 or 4 times with and without training.  I believe this is an attainable goal and with that goal it may force me to start running more and get in better shape for my health and to test myself.  Changing my eating habits is something that I’ve really been trying to do but this may force me to change my diet even more.  Another issue I might have a problem with is drinking.  Yes, I drink beer, whiskey, and vodka at least once or twice a week and sometimes more.  Cutting down on the alcohol intake will be good for me though.  I’ve got Kirk to go to for training questions and help and he knows more about this than anyone I know.  In six months I may join a marathon training course/group, but I still need to just work up that.  So please laugh at me and then encourage me.  This is something I want to do and possibly something I need to do.  If you have any helpful advice, I’ll take that as well.  I’ve joined up on the RunTex site as Invidkllr, of course.  I’ll be adding a new category to label my run blogs with as well.

One year.  One Marathon.  One Fatass.

I’m published… I guess. found a few of my Hollywood photos on my Flickr page and asked me if they could submit a few for consideration in their publication.  After a week or two, my pictures are in and credited.  Kind of cool.

If you don’t see them just click on the Hollywood Wax Museum and watch the image slideshow at that top right.

Gearing Up for Getting Down

SXSWWith XBox Live being so flakey right now and new years resolutions to deal with, there wasn’t much game playing this weekend. Operation reorganized room is at about 53% completion. Oil is changed. Registration sticker stuck. Headlight bulb replaced. I got more done this weekend than I thought I would despite the fact that I got my foot stomped and ankle twisted in one of the Hooligans soccer games on Friday. Saw some shows. Went to some friend gatherings. Only had about one or two drinks when I went out. Played Catch Phrase: Music Edition. Seems I might be coming down with a cold right now though.

I’ve added the SXSW Interactive link to the sidebar. SXSW will be here before we know it! I’m already getting excited. Two months away. That’s nothing. If you’re going, look me up and lets hit some panels.

I finally feel motivated to get some things done that I’ve been putting off and that’s a very good thing for me.

“What Happened to All the Nice Guys?”

Austinist posted a link to this posting and I couldn’t have said it better myself. I’m a nice guy turned asshole and have recently transitioning back to nice guy.

“What Happened to All the Nice Guys?” Date: 2007-11-19, 3:52AM PST

I see this question posted with some regularity in the personals section, so I thought I’d take a minute to explain things to the ladies out there that haven’t figured it out.

What happened to all the nice guys?

The answer is simple: you did.

See, if you think back, really hard, you might vaguely remember a Platonic guy pal who always seemed to want to spend time with you. He’d tag along with you when you went shopping, stop by your place for a movie when you were lonely but didn’t feel like going out, or even sit there and hold you while you sobbed and told him about how horribly the (other) guy that you were fucking treated you.

At the time, you probably joked with your girlfriends about how he was a little puppy dog, always following you around, trying to do things to get you to pay attention to him. They probably teased you because they thought he had a crush on you. Given that his behavior was, admittedly, a little pathetic, you vehemently denied having any romantic feelings for him, and buttressed your position by claiming that you were “just friends.” Besides, he totally wasn’t your type. I mean, he was a little too short, or too bald, or too fat, or too poor, or didn’t know how to dress himself, or basically be or do any of the things that your tall, good-looking, fit, rich, stylish boyfriend at the time pulled off with such ease.

Eventually, your Platonic buddy drifted away, as your relationship with the boyfriend got more serious and spending time with this other guy was, admittedly, a little weird, if you werent dating him. More time passed, and the boyfriend eventually cheated on you, or became boring, or you realized that the things that attracted you to him weren’t the kinds of things that make for a good, long-term relationship. So, now, you’re single again, and after having tried the bar scene for several months having only encountered players and douche bags, you wonder, “What happened to all the nice guys?”

Well, once again, you did.

You ignored the nice guy. You used him for emotional intimacy without reciprocating, in kind, with physical intimacy. You laughed at his consideration and resented his devotion. You valued the aloof boyfriend more than the attentive “just-a-” friend. Eventually, he took the hint and moved on with his life. He probably came to realize, one day, that women aren’t really attracted to guys who hold doors open; or make dinners just because; or buy you a Christmas gift that you mentioned, in passing, that you really wanted five months ago; or listen when you’re upset; or hold you when you cry. He came to realize that, if he wanted a woman like you, he’d have to act more like the boyfriend that you had. He probably cleaned up his look, started making some money, and generally acted like more of an asshole than he ever wanted to be.

Fact is, now, he’s probably getting laid, and in a way, your ultimate rejection of him is to thank for that. And I’m sorry that it took the complete absence of “nice guys” in your life for you to realize that you missed them and wanted them. Most women will only have a handful of nice guys stumble into their lives, if that.

So, if you’re looking for a nice guy, here’s what you do:

1.) Build a time machine.

2.) Go back a few years and pull your head out of your ass.

3.) Take a look at what’s right in front of you and grab ahold of it.

I suppose the other possibility is that you STILL don’t really want a nice guy, but you feel the social pressure to at least appear to have matured beyond your infantile taste in men. In which case, you might be in luck, because the nice guy you claim to want has, in reality, shed his nice guy mantle and is out there looking to unleash his cynicism and resentment onto someone just like you.

If you were five years younger.

So, please: either stop misrepresenting what you want, or own up to the fact that you’ve fucked yourself over. You’re getting older, after all. It’s time to excise the bullshit and deal with reality. You didn’t want a nice guy then, and he certainly doesn’t fucking want you, now.


A Recovering Nice Guy